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November Beatitude 2017

November has come to an end. And actually, it is December already.

I guess it is too late to post November Beatitude 2017 but it is still a mandatory to me because I had to? Absolutely yes!

I would say November was like a rollercoaster where there were some ups and downs yet I had to enjoy the ride no matter what because the seatbelt was on or I could have fallen. I am really grateful to see people that have come into my life, and those somehow who appeared there to be a part of my rollercoaster life from distance. I have always believed that things happen for a reason, if I still cannot find the reason then probably it has to take another episode to find it.

I guess that is enough for the introduction about how my November went like, in this weekend’s post I will be showing you the things that I enjoyed the most in November. Let’s get started with this one,

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If you remember this line, then I think you are obviously an admirer of Paulo Coelho, especially his phenomenal book The Alchemist.

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If you want something, the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. Since then, I have always believed that every single dream that I wish for, the universe is listening as long as I keep working on it. I am so glad a friend of mine recommended me this book because honestly this book has changed the way I see about life and always encourage me to keep on believing.

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Meditation helps when your head is weary. If life gives you lemon, then I think you should refresh your mind with something relaxing. I always have this simmering liquid aromatherapy from Breathe.

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I simply turn the bedroom lights off, then turn on the electric aromatherapy oil burner. Not to forget that I have to pour a few drops of Sandalwood Liquid. Sandalwood has always been my favorite aroma because it more smells like soap which somehow gives you the feeling that you have showered but actually not.

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Last but not least, I actually still have another one beatitude which I think it has always been a mandatory since the beginning. My November hymn! I found this song on Connor Franta’s Spotify Playlist and somehow truly in love with the whole of this song either from the lyrics or the music. Check out her live performance here,

I love the way she sings the song with her heart, it looks purely written and it somehow has deep meaning for Betty. I love listening to it when I am alone, especially with my aromatherapy turned on, it feels really perfect.

So, that’s how I enjoyed my November so far. Little things that everyone likes must have some meaning behind it and I think that’s how we can appreciate something. What are your favorite things in November? I hope this last month of 2017 will bring you joy that you deserve. Have a great weekend! 🙂


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Made My First Wooden Amplifier with JanSport Campus Ambassadors

Hello, Good Peeps! I am so glad to be finally back to blogging since I was caught up with so many things lately. It had been a month I did not post something here on my blog and I thought I had to wipe the dust off. But here I am, with my very first wooden amplifier where I almost cut my finger yet so worth to try! I mean not to try cutting your finger.

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First thing’s first, let’s meet these JanSport Campus Ambassadors Indonesia 2017. I am really happy to be in the same circle with these cool peeps. There are only six of us but we are really excited to see how far JanSport activities will take us next!

So, the first activity of JSCA is creating our own wooden amplifier which took place in ONX Creative Studio. We were assisted with the people there and you have no idea how fun it was! This wooden amplifier will allow you to use your smartphone as a brand new speaker without cords or batteries needed. Awesome, isn’t it?

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It could take around 6 hours to make the wooden amplifier because there were a few stages to take which consisted of measuring the woods into 5 wood pieces and 1 acrylic for the cover; cutting the woods; sanding the wood with sandpaper; glueing the pieces into a wooden amplifier; fitting all in; and the fun part is coloring.

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Honestly it took me around 30 minutes to measure the wood pieces somehow. And when it came to the wood cutting, I almost shattered the wood, my fingers, and the machine at the same I suppose. The power was too high and I barely got it stabilized until I had to ruin my wood pieces. Amateur, pardon!

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Long short story, I had to sand the wood and arrange all the pieces into one wooden amplifier with glue and put on a metal oil funnel which function to enhance the sound. Frankly I got trouble while arranging the pieces because there was one piece that could not fit in and I had to keep on sanding it over and over again. It happened because my wood cutting skill was completely lousy. To be honest, haha! After that, we could color up the wood pieces and the metal oil funnel. But don’t forget to let it dry first after glueing them into one piece.

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Voila! Our own wooden amplifier is done! No batteries and cords needed, your original speaker is ready to use. I had so much fun in creating this wooden amplifier though it took me hours to finish it since I was the second from the last who made it. However, you guys can give it a try to make your own wooden amplifier at home. All you need is just woods, tools to cut the woods which I think you can use saw, glues, and paint to color up your amplifier. Sounds easy?

So, that’s how my very first of December went by. Having new friends with incredible experience. Now tell me yours! How do you usually spend your weekend? Share your thoughts below and wish you have a great weekend! 🙂


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Eco-Friendly Outfit Collections in Jakarta Fashion Week 2018

Happy Weekend, Guys! We are almost in the end of October, which means Halloween is on its way to come thought my country does not celebrate Halloween but I love the idea of Horror movies are rolling on Fox Channel. Haha!

So, I was invited by Cotton Ink, a local fashion brand from Indonesia to come to Jakarta Fashion Week 2018 at Grazia Glitz and Glam Show last week. Since I have often heard about Grazia Magazine, it made more excited to see the show.

Since the theme is “Divas in Music”, I was actually going to wear something more colorful but in the end, I decided to go back to my own fashion zone. Monochrome, as always. 

I totally love my cape coat I got from Ciel. Although this cape was meant to show my collarbone and arm, since I wear hijab, I wore a blouse with bell sleeve from The Executive and trouser suit from Color Box. To elevate my super monochrome outfit, I wore a chunky necklace I got somewhere in Australia and my all time favorite high heels from Nine West. Not to forget my favorite black and white Tote Bag from Kate Spade New York.

The show should had been started around 5 pm but turned out at 6.30 pm. The delay was super outrageous since there were not seats at all and all guests were somehow wanted to stand, socialize, and drink.

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However the long line up was truly worth the wait after the show had been started. The front lines were full with designers and public figures. Most of the people in the tent were mostly invited privately.

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First show started with the collection of Rinda Salmun. The gothic style she was inspired from Madonna made the ambience more exciting. I spotted Wulan Guritno in a long white sleeve which covered her hands over there. I loved her make up.

And here are the designs from Kleting Titis Wigati who owns Kle The Label. The shown outfits were the results of Kle’s collaboration with Avani. The woman with big red outer in the first picture is the best look for me!

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And here is the one that I have told in the beginning, the collection of Nonita Respati from Purana Indonesia is the one that could show its point of difference. The outerwear itself is made from Cassava bag with quilted sew. These collections were inspired by the look of Gwen Stefani.

Now this is the collection from Cotton Ink. All designs were inspired from Kylie Minogue. Carline Darjanto and Ria Sarwono, as founder of Cotton Ink showed some sleeveless trench outer, ruffle skirt, baby terry dress with bubbly sleeve, and palazzo trouser.

Last but not least, collections from Luna Maya with the collaboration of Hartono Gan were inspired from the look of Beyonce. The show was started with Millane Fernandez’s performance singing “Single Ladies”.

Soo, that was the updates of how fashion has grown so far in Jakarta Fashion Week 2018. Recalling that Climate Change issue has been growing rapidly, sometimes it is good to know that fashion is also taking part in combating the issue by implementing eco-friendly materials.

Which one is your favorite from the collection above? and what would you do to combat climate change? I think the last question is too academical but just share your thoughts in the comment below. Have a great weekend!


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September Beatitude 2017

Hello, Guys! I know it is a bit late to share my favorite things of September 2017 but I guess there is nothing too late for goldy things right?

Truthfully I have been quite occupied with works and college. Things have been rolling in like sandstorm in Sahara. Sounds too much? But that is the analogy of my life lately.

September was a really great month so far, many debatable issues which caused conflict between wants and needs. I also had my first trip to Bromo Mountain in Malang for the first time in forever! Merci, September!

This time I am not going to show you about my trip to Bromo Mountain but firstly I would be showing you things that gave me joy the most.


“My heart wandered through the world, constantly seeking after my cure, but the sweet and delicious water of life, had to break through the granite of my heart.” 

Ever heard of this line? The Rumi Daybook is a poetry book which has 365 poems and teachings from the beloved Sufi Master. Imagine you can finish the poem one each day. Read and feel the rhymes within your soul and I am pretty sure that is how it works. Each of the poems has its own meaning and implied lesson thus it is good for a little enlightenment for your day.

My most favorite Floppy Beach Hat from H&M. I accidentally found the hat when I was in cashier and saw it got 40% discounts, my heart was pounding, perplexed whether to take it or not but I couldn’t stop the desire and eventually said, “May I take this one too please?”. And that’s how it went. Haha! However I am going to wear this hat for my upcoming vacation to Bali in early November, thus another Look Book is about to come more!

The sophisticated and lovely smell from Wild Argan Oil Body Butter of the Body Shop has always pampered my day. It soothes my skin perfectly could get my skin moisturized in a short time.

Last but not least, a song! Actually I have been keeping up with The Royals TV Series which got me one favorite themed song from it. Speaking of Truth by Laleh. This Swedish singer has a very authentic voice and as I listen to it, I could easily follow the unique rhythm which somehow I could not stop.

Although I am not really sure but I think this song tells about the woman who tries to speak about the truth that she is in love with the man but the man she thinks perfect seems so greedy of love. However, she still wants to be with him. That’s what I assume so far, what do you think?

These are my favorite things in September. What are yours? I hope this October would be a very pleasant month for everyone. However, to make up my delayed post last week, I got something coming right up for you after this post. So, stay tuned! Have a great weekend! 🙂


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What’s the Difference Between Glam Glow Youthmud and Supermud?

“On October 3rd, he asked me what day it was.”

But it is 6th already and welcome to the new weekend of October! I am so excited with this month because it is actually going closer to my birthday. Haha! However, I would be showing you the other product of Glam Glow which is Supermud.

Actually this time I am more into going to expose the review of Glam Glow Supermud but no need to worry! You can check out the previous review about Glam Glow Youthmud before or after this one.

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Black and White. To be honest I have not figured out the philosophy why the color is black, why the color is white. If we use our logic, something about youth is supposed to be something bright not dark because we are chasing bright future precisely and something about super is supposed to be something dark not bright, umm like batman because super? Haha! Never mind these thoughts, but one thing that I could figure out and see the clear difference is its scent. And something the same is the chunky textures you find inside which is real tea leafs.

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Most people say Glam Glow Masks are a “facial in a bottle“, and I guess I am buying it. The after effect I always have after using it has always been fresher, smoother, and softer than ever which is perfectly amazing. As you can see from the picture, the mask color of Supermud is actually much darker and its texture is more slushy but dense. Have a closer look here,

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Glam Glow Supermud is also known best for those who want to draw out of their acnes and this is also best for anti-aging mask. The application itself is still the same like the Youthmud, I usually leave it for about 15 minutes and rinse it with water.

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The mask that I wear above is Supermud. That is how it looks when it has dried, and if you take a little closer by zooming in the picture to my nose, you can see that the mask is working well because of the oil are being extracted from my pores. However if you have never used Glam Glow Masks before, don’t freak out if your skin seems to feel burned and tingled. That is clearly normal and that is how it works. However you know your skin, if it feels more burned on your skin, you better rinse it off.

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To sum it up, the difference between Glam Glow Youthmud and Supermud is just its goods and physical look. For physical look, you have seen the difference from its texture, color, and scent. And for the goods itself, Youthmud is for anti-aging benefits and I believe that is why it is called “Youthmud” and Supermud is best to draw out the small blackheads and acnes. However both of them are best for anti-aging benefits. Therefore, I would recommend you guys if you don’t have any troubles with your skin, you better use Youthmud and if you have, Supermud is best for you.

I hope you find this review helpful. Personally, I love using Glam Glow Masks because I totally can feel the result after using it since I like instant stuffs. Haha! However it is better used for 3 times in a week for a better result. Before ending this article, there is a fun trivia about Youthmud where actually the mud base itself is from South of France Mediterranean Sea and that is why it is pretty expensive but worth to try.

Have you tried one of these before? Do you like it? Share your thoughts below and have a great weekend! Xx

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Facial Essentials by Clean and Clear You Should Try

Welcome back to the third Saturday of September! I am so happy that I can finally rest my head on the pillow without having any burdens, close my eyes gracefully without any deadlines, and breathe peacefully without any madness, yet it also happens for now. Ah!

Speaking of burdens, deadlines, and madness, actually I recently had a kinda rough week. Harsh words were rolling in, stumbling upon my head like a car crash however I am so glad that I could prove them wrong and always stand still with myself because a great pleasure in life is doing what others say. you can’t.

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Back to this weekend’s topic, I have these facial essentials from Clean and Clear hampers I received. I have been using these five items and I would like to show you what I like the most from these products. Let’s get started with the first item,

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Foaming Facial Wash

This one is very suitable for those who want to remove excess oil and prevent pimples which do not cause dry skin but I don’t really use this one that often since my skin does not really have any pimples thus I do not think I should wear it much.

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Oil-Control Toner

This one is basically my favorite. I usually apply this with moisten cotton ball or pad around my face and neck after having my face washed. It always makes my face feel fresher than ever.

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Facial Cleanser Brightening Lemon

This one reminds me of the campaign I made about the first day of college for Clean & Clear. I have always loved the smell and its quick soothing foam as I apply it around my face, I feel fresher than ever after applying it.

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Facial Cleanser Energizing Berry

This one is actually quite similar to the lemon facial cleanser. One thing that differentiate  between them is this one has more berry scents that I am really fond of despite the bursting beads which it also has in it. I like to slowly rub it around as I make circle on my face.

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Natural Bright Wash

This one is basically my very first face wash by Clean & Clear that I had before. I really love the smell since it is a combination of rose water and honey.

So that’s all I have so far for this weekend. After all reviews, I would say that the best of the best item of all is Facial Cleanser Brightening Lemon. I love the smell and the fruity package it has. Do you use Clean & Clear products too? What is your favorite? Share what you think below and have a great weekend! ❤


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August Beatitude 2017

August has ended, September just started!

Well, not really started because I should have posted this writing a week earlier however today is the day of August Beatitude 2017! I am so grateful for the things that stepped to my door in the last month, most of the good things happened from the process of getting up from dark times. It might sound melancholic but that’s the thing, good things only happen if you can make your own positive vibes and dare to leave it all behind.

Okay, so I got a few stuff that I am super fond of either they are useful or lovely or even tasty! Let’s get started with the first one,

This handy and super classy-scented perfume by Lanvin has always been my go to in August. I got this Eclat de Fleurs by Lanvin from my sister and I am completely in love with the sort of jasmine scent it has. I only wear this perfume for certain importan occasion.

Ah this is not just a cookie, this is the tastiest cookie from Tokyo that I have ever tasted! This Tokyo Campanella my friend brought has a very tasty chocolate inside and well-crunchy tastes when it slids through your tongue as it crushes between your teeth. Just imagine that, so beautiful, isn’t it?

This is best of the best books I have ever read! Connor Franta never disappoints me with with his arts. Besides, this Note to Self book which writes about self-development through photography, poems, and Connor’s own story has given me positive impacts to be more than just who I am yet always be myself. This book has taught me to grow, learn, and never stop. Until it has made me create this short documentary film, the words i hope you never have to hear.

Catchy song which sounds like the music of Tame Impala but this one is  more like my kind of song. Machine by Tender was once on the Today’s Top Hits at Spotify. I am not really sure whether it is still there but this one is super good to listen to. This song tells about how we are controlled like machine where in the first verse expressed that we love to see our phone whilst we know that nobody cares but for the second verse, I am still trying to interpret the correlation between the first and the second. Hehe! Well I am trying.

That’s all I have for this weekend’s blogpost. I hope you find this article useful and could inspire you as your weekly preference. I have been told by my seniors that recently graduated to savor my time in college and never rush into things. However I guess you can relate to always enjoy every process and always make yourself busy to be a better version of you. What were your favorite things to use in August? Share your thoughts in the comment below because I would love to hear more! Have a great weekend😊


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Street Style Idea: Rock Your Ripped Jeans

Hello! Ripped jeans is becoming hype again after all those years. Remember the mural trends that used to be worn by old fashioned people where this artwork is usually painted or applied directly on a wall, ceiling or other permanent surface but now all fashion bloggers are so into it because mural is now available on apparels!

But I am not going to talk about mural trend. I am going to talk about something else as you have noticed that the title is not talking about mural. Heh!

Isn’t it funny when sometimes your friends or family make fun of your ripped jeans by saying, “Were you chased by a dog?”; “Or were you almost eaten by a dog?”.

Oh my! Thank you so much for your caring. Appreciate it so much.

Instead of bluffing about how your close people make fun of your ripped jeans, let’s get started with the way how to rock your ripped jeans!

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Leather blazer and ripped jeans are always the best companion for my day out every weekend! Very casual and I barely put a lot of effort on it. This leather blazer might have been seen on my previous blogpost in the Afternoon Coffee at Giyanti Coffee Jakarta.

I am wearing this brown leather blazer from Zara, brown fine leather from Fossil, and a small black backpack from Pedro. These stuff might have also been featured earlier, but I would like to show you how I did mix and match with the new stuff I got here which is the ripped jeans I have from Stradivarius.

The aviator glasses that look like Ray Ban there is Tom Ford which I like the most and it looks very sophisticated. I completely love the design. And the shoes I am wearing is actually the mural shoes! Yay the trend that I mentioned earlier in the introduction is pretty useful, eh? I got it from Stradivarius. And look at what I found here, a very rare peacock that was open for picture! So cute!

So, that’s all for this weekend. I have been loving this ripped jeans so much though some people say that hijabis are not supposed to wear ripped jeans and supposed to wear something modest. That sounds a bit contrast with what I do but that sounds pretty great for the next discussion on my next blogpost. How do you rock ripped jeans? Tell me what you think and share your ideas with the world! Have a great weekend💙


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VLOG | Outfit To Wear for Hiking in Pine Forest

Since yesterday’s blogpost sounded more personal, here is another blogpost written with love for you! I am going to talk about the outfit I wore for hiking in the pine forest as a shooting location I went to for the short documentary film ‘the words i hope you never have to hear’.

And also! I wanted to celebrate the total of 1000 likes I finally got on stylebychia!

Thank you so much  to you guys who have been following and keeping up with my blog. I couldn’t thank you enough. I probably should do a giveaway once I reach 4000 total followers! What do you think?

This semester break is totally a break free I have always needed. I am so excited that I finally went to pine forest near the mountain of Tangkuban Perahu, Bandung. It was exactly located a few miles from the mountain.

I went there with my friend as I once requested to go to a place where we can bring ourselves closer to nature. And here it is, a little hike to the pine forest.

We did not bring too many stuff since we did not want to make our bags heavy but one thing that we surely brought was indeed sweater whilst mine was the knitted one. Oh, and for intermezzo, actually that one picture above was once featured on Fossil’s Instagram Story since I wore Fossil watch and it was National Friendship Day. That was really exciting! I really love how Fossil treats everyone on social media, they are so lovely and kind.

I loved the ambience there, the temperature was pretty cold yet still acceptable. I loved how the sun flashing through the leaves and made lingering shadows on the ground. They were so lovely and it makes me want to go there again!

I enjoyed sleeping on the ground, and savoring the warmth of sunlight under the tall pine trees. The air was light and beautiful. I used my knitted sweater from Stradivarius as a pillow. I honestly had no idea what to wear for hiking since I was coming from Jakarta and did not really bring too many clothes which means, my outfits were totally limited and that was frustrating?!

But luckily, I decided to wear green army shirt from et cetera which I found from my wardrobe.

I wore blue ripped jeans from Stradivarius and super comfy shoes from Wakai. Umm, is it weird to wear Wakai for hiking since this shoes are more likely to be worn for malls but hey it was comfortable. Okay.

Honestly this is one of my favorite pictures in 2017. I never ever regret taking this picture because I feel like I totally nailed photography in Depth of Field (DoF) subject. Haha!

If you are keen for knowing what I did in the pine forest, check out my latest vlog here along with the stories behind the scene of ‘the words i hope you never have to hear’.

So that is how I spent my semester break so far. If you still remember my previous post in July Beatitude 2017 saying that there was a lot of things crossed in my minds about social judgement, misinterpretations and many other things, I honestly completely felt better after landing my feet in this place. It is true, they say, sometimes we just need to run away to nature for a day at least, just to clear up our minds. And it really worked. I am not being normative but this is true and it happened to me. Whatever happens, just bring yourself closer to nature. It may put your mind at ease. I hope this blogpost inspires you in every aspects, thank you so much for reading and have a great weekend!


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the page i hope you never have to read.

This weekend’s blogpost will be much more different like the usual. This is more personal and more like an open diary that I hope everyone can relate to their life from the short documentary film, ‘the words i hope you never have to hear’ I recently uploaded on my YouTube channel. If you have not watched it, I will give you the precious 5 minutes 13 seconds to have your inner soul awaken. Go, watch it, go, go.

Congratulations you have reached the end of the video. Now I am giving you the time to think whether you would like to move on to the stories behind the short film or to the other blogpost of mine that you find interesting instead of reading this one. Please, just suit yourself, but really, I have written this long why are you leaving?!

Merci beaucoup. That’s all I can say if you are still reading this blogpost. Before starting it all, I will accept all the thoughts that might appear inside your head about me, no, no, I am not thinking negatively about you, I just want to accept and forgive things before I get myself washed into a continuous cycle and kept me in the dark negative loop.

Some people might think that I am a super dramatic and melancholic philanthropist for making a short film with poetic narration about life as if I am the wisest person on this planet earth. Before this thought crosses your mind and gets worse, please allow me to help you understand that this is my choice to share my insight about this situation in purpose to virtually encourage anyone who ever feel this way because I am here, I was once in your shoes and that is okay, you are not alone. Frankly I am nervous and scared too because this is the first time for me to share something personal about my life but I don’t want you to experience this too, so this is the page I hope you never have to read,

I went home too early I supposed. Thirty minutes earlier I almost made the Uber driver confused because of the noise I made in the back seat. But I am glad I managed it well, I still had a pleasant conversation with the Uber driver along the ride in purpose to put my real-self in disguise. As I arrived home, I closed the bedroom door and went to the corner near the balcony. My head was heavy, my eyes were weary, wasting too much energy in the five hours earlier but that night, it began again and there was no one but me. It was silent yet so loud inside of me. That night was a big battle between me and my tangled thoughts. They are like little dirt specks of life, washing over you into a continuous cycle, pulling you into a downward spiral, trying to keep you in a dark negative loop.

2 hours earlier, I just sat there in a sofa corner. Struggling with the tangled strings in mind. Back to my phone again, scrolling over the timeline watching the latest post that got hundreds of likes and comments in a minute and videos with 10 seconds length of how people around me having a great night in that place. They seemed having so much fun, but when I looked up, they just looked down staring at their phone, ignoring each other. We live in a generation where people ignore each other to get each other’s attention.

Everyone was busy capturing moments, socializing, cuddling, drinking, dancing, and we all know that’s how celebration works but my mind was not in the room. Forcing laughter and faking smile, I just could not help it any longer. My soul was screaming for help but no one listened, even me. And that was my mistake, forcing my soul to be the life of the party whilst I was not. 

In a few weeks earlier, people have come and gone, I accepted that. Isn’t that something common? I always think people are just lessons in every single chapter that I write day to day, and that is how I survive. Words don’t mean, people mean. Words are powerful but a person who delivers it make the words become much more powerful. And that person depends on your perspective about them. I am sorry I did not put my guard up when they hurt you with their words, I am sorry for not defending you from their shallow misinterpretations about you.

Well, this is not the end. The days after that night in the corner of my room, I hiked to the pine forest with my best friend. I had always asked her to take me somewhere that bring us closer to nature. My mind was still at its worst thus I needed distraction. Some of my friends that I think I am close with might remember this question, “what if I leave social media? can I do that?”. That is actually a sudden question which they had no idea it would lead to my short isolation, I am wondering what they think by putting the question as an action of social media detox for good and it surprised me. One thing that they asked was, “but are you still communicating?”; “but you need to still reply my message”. I feel like I have a hope and you realize there are still people who genuinely care about you no matter what.

I am a PR student, a blogger and a content writer intern that both work remotely, too hard for me to leave a platform which aligns to my career. I could not thank Allah enough for that. I admit that I always have my phone on my hand, regardless for replying emails, messages, and social media indeed. I have seen so many things on social media that somehow almost caused me into insecurities, loneliness, isolation, and depression. And I had no idea that it would give such a great impact to myself like the words I said in the video. Gladly no one has ever said one of those words to me in the face, but weirdly, it was me, myself. Myself said that to me like million voices screaming in high volume like possessed person you watch in horror movies. I cried but I did not understand why, that was really confusing and torturing. What was the reason? What made you feel so heavy? I don’t know! Don’t ask me that question.

That most likely could bring someone into isolation because they do not know how to answer that questions, they are clueless, don’t give them questions, a simple tight hug, a cheer up, and say it will be okay is more than just enough. Probably that is why they isolate themselves to avoid those kind of questions and let themselves being drowned in silence. Because they think it could help them but actually not. The more I think, isolating myself from circumstances ain’t gonna help me out of it. Talk to the one you trust the most, spill it out, cry it out, it is okay, you are going to pass this phase, now take a deep breath and drink water. These dark thoughts are just your illusions.

This short documentary film is more like the amalgam of events in my life where social media has important role in it. I almost always use this platform to communicate. Too many beautiful things I have seen from it that somehow set my standards about success, happiness, and beauty. Let’s take an example about happiness, I once talked to a kid in a village far from city, “Eating chicken is the best moment in my life!”. He only eats chicken in special occasion whilst I almost eat chicken everyday. This is really sad, it clearly proves that the standard of happiness for everyone is different and it is constructed from the circumstances they live in. These constellation of dark thoughts might explode at the point of time you never expect.

If you ask me why I made this video, I do not know. I am sorry for lying to you that I will give the reasons why, I just do not know. That is just how I express myself, probably through arts. Everyone has their own way to express themselves, and this is how I do it. I want to give positive insight for everyone by telling if you ever feel that way, it will be okay, you are just having a hard time because I know how it feels like and you are not alone. These days might be hard but I believe storms will pass.

Before ending these long paragraphs, if you feel this way, it is completely okay, you are not dramatic if you feel this way, it is just a phase. If you need somebody to talk to, I will be there, whoever you are, you can text me through e-mail, Instagram message, or anything. Remember that you are loved, and you will always be.

And before I take my cue to leave, these are the words i hope they ever have to hear. I have been through a lot until I gladly finally made this short documentary film and there are people whom I need to send my deepest gratitude in the making of this video. I wanted to send my deepest gratitude to my best friend Alin for helping and accompanying me making this video, Connor Franta as the author of Note to Self book which has given me inspiration and courage from his writing, my sister for hugging me  so tight in the hours before that horrible night, people I met that night who had time to always keep me up with the conversation and those who were somehow aware with the heavy look on my face I unfortunately could not hide, Rose whom I called that night and willingly listened to my tangled thoughts then put my laughter back which I needed the most, my friends I could not mention one by one who always give me support. If you are curious to watch how I made the film, watch the behind the scene here because the making is probably not as sad as you might have thought hehe! Come on, put a little laughter on your face, that looks beautiful, now go and see the world outside because they await for you. Thank you for reading this long, it means the world to me.

chia.

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